Please God, Give Me More Faith

A man asks, “Please God, give me more faith” and then the real story begins.

Because that prayer sounds noble. It sounds clean. It sounds like something you could stitch onto a cushion and place near a lamp. Yet when a man truly asks God for more faith he is not asking for a warm feeling. He is not asking for a religious mood. He is asking for spiritual muscle and spiritual muscle is not grown in comfort.

So the man prays and then.

Then God answers in the way God often answers. Not with a lightning bolt of certainty and not with a sudden floating sensation that makes every doubt evaporate. God answers by arranging the man’s life so faith has to be used.

The man wants more faith and God gives him more reasons to trust.

That is the part we rarely say out loud.

We ask for faith and secretly we mean, please remove all the things that make faith necessary. Please tidy the world. Please smooth the road. Please keep the sea calm so I can feel brave.

But faith is not bravery when nothing is at stake. Faith is trusting God when something is at stake.

So the man prays and the next day he wakes and nothing dramatic has changed. The kettle still boils. The bills still exist. His own heart still has its familiar mix of gratitude and worry and stubbornness. Yet a small thing happens. A quiet pressure. An invitation. The man is nudged toward obedience in an area he has been avoiding.

Perhaps it is forgiving someone who does not deserve it. Perhaps it is confessing a sin he has hidden. Perhaps it is making a hard phone call and doing the right thing when it might cost him. Perhaps it is praying for someone when he would rather scroll and forget the world exists. Perhaps it is giving generously when he would rather clutch what he has.

This is where faith begins. Not in grand speeches but in small obedient steps.

The man thinks, surely this is not the answer. Surely more faith would feel more impressive.

But God is not in the business of spiritual theatre. He is in the business of making saints.

So the man takes one step. It feels awkward. It feels fragile. He wonders if he will fall. He expects God to be disappointed with the shakiness of his obedience. Yet as he steps he finds something solid underneath him. Like rock underfoot.

He learns the first lesson of faith. God’s faithfulness is stronger than his feelings.

Then a second thing happens.

A trial arrives.

Not because God delights in pain and not because the world suddenly noticed the man’s prayer and decided to punish him for it. Trials come because we live in a fallen world. Yet God uses trials with a kind of holy precision. He turns what the enemy means for harm into training for the soul.

The man wanted more faith. So God gives him a situation where faith is the only sensible posture.

Maybe the man’s health wobbles. Maybe work becomes uncertain. Maybe a relationship strains. Maybe a child makes choices that break his heart. Maybe anxiety begins to circle like a gull over the same patch of sea. Maybe old grief rises again and sits on his chest like a heavy blanket. Maybe the future feels foggy and the man cannot see two steps ahead.

And in that fog the man prays again, “Please God, give me more faith.”

And then.

Then the Lord does not always change the circumstance immediately. Often He changes the man inside the circumstance. God begins to teach him to trust without controlling.

This is hard because control feels like safety. Many of us do not even realise how much we worship control until God takes it away. We think we worship God. Yet our true altar is the illusion that if we plan well enough and worry long enough we can keep trouble outside the door.

God in His mercy breaks that illusion.

Not to be cruel. To set us free.

Because faith is not the art of holding life together. Faith is the art of being held.

So the man learns to sit in the waiting. He learns to stop bargaining with God. He learns to stop saying, Lord I will trust you if you do this. He learns to say, Lord I trust you because you are you.

He learns to pray like this.

Father I do not understand what you are doing and I do not like the feeling of being weak and I do not enjoy uncertainty. Yet you are good and you are wise and you are with me. Teach me to trust you here.

That prayer is faith.

Not the loud kind. The deep kind.

The kind that grows roots.

And because the man is human he fails at this. He panics. He overthinks. He becomes moody. He snaps at people he loves. He forgets what God has done in the past which is a very human habit. We are like Israel in the wilderness. Deliverance in our rear view mirror and anxiety in our mouth. One miracle behind us and we still ask if God can provide tomorrow.

So God gives the man reminders.

Not always spectacular. Often ordinary.

A friend calls at the right time. A verse comes to mind like a lamp being lit. A sermon lands with uncanny relevance. A quiet moment in the kitchen becomes an altar. A sunrise punches through the clouds and the man feels for a second that God has not left him. A door opens that the man could not have forced. A bill is paid unexpectedly. A burden lifts just enough to breathe.

These are not coincidences. They are the gentle fingerprints of a Father teaching His son.

The man learns a second lesson. Faith grows on the diet of remembrance.

If you want more faith you must remember God’s past faithfulness and you must name it. Write it down. Speak it out. Tell your children. Tell your friends. Tell your own anxious heart.

God has not carried you this far to drop you at the finish line.

Then the man meets another challenge. He realises that asking for more faith is also asking for more truth.

Because faith is not believing whatever makes you comfortable. Faith is trusting the God who has spoken.

And sometimes what God has spoken cuts across what the man wants.

So the man begins to see areas where he has been living on borrowed beliefs. He has been saying the right things while holding back whole rooms of his life from the Lord. He has been selective.

Many of us are.

We trust God with eternity and we refuse to trust Him with Monday. We trust Him with heaven and we refuse to trust Him with habits. We trust Him with forgiveness and we refuse to trust Him with our temper. We trust Him with salvation and we refuse to trust Him with our money. We trust Him with doctrine and we refuse to trust Him with obedience.

So God goes after the rooms we have locked.

Not because He is nosy. Because He loves us. Because locked rooms become mouldy. Because secret sins become chains. Because half surrendered hearts become tired hearts.

The man wanted more faith. God gives him the grace to repent.

Repentance is not a popular word. Yet repentance is one of God’s kindest gifts. It is the doorway back to freedom. It is the moment you stop defending your sin and start agreeing with God. It is not merely sorrow. It is turning.

So the man turns.

He deletes what he should not be watching. He apologises where he has been stubborn. He asks forgiveness from someone he wronged. He makes a change that costs him. He begins to pray honestly rather than politely. He begins to read Scripture not as a box to tick but as bread.

And as he turns he discovers something.

Faith grows fastest in the soil of humility.

Then the man’s prayer begins to change. He still wants more faith but he wants it for different reasons now. At first he wanted more faith so he could feel better. Now he wants more faith so he can honour God. At first he wanted more faith to quiet his fears. Now he wants more faith to obey even when fear is still present.

This is what maturity looks like. The man is becoming less self centred. Not miserable. Just rightly centred. His life is slowly moving around God again rather than using God as a tool to manage his life.

He begins to see that faith is not the absence of doubt but the decision to trust God in spite of doubt.

He begins to see that faith is not a mood but a posture.

He begins to see that faith is not a heroic leap off a cliff but daily walking with God one step at a time.

And yes sometimes it does feel heroic. Sometimes a man must choose trust in a moment that feels like standing on a battlefield. Sometimes he must cling to God with white knuckles. Yet even then faith is not the man’s strength. It is the man’s grip on God’s strength.

The greatest comfort in all of this is that the object of faith matters more than the size of faith.

A small faith in a great Saviour is enough.

Jesus did not say, if you have mountain sized faith. He said if you have faith like a mustard seed. Tiny. Real. Alive.

So my dear reader, when a man asks, “Please God, give me more faith” we should not imagine God handing him a shiny certificate labelled Faith Level Up. God gives the man opportunities. God gives the man trials. God gives the man truth. God gives the man repentance. God gives the man perseverance. God gives the man a deeper knowledge of Christ.

God gives the man Himself.

That is the goal. Not faith as a trophy. Christ as a treasure.

And here is where the story becomes sweet.

Because one day the man looks back and realises he has changed. Not suddenly. Slowly. Like a tree that you do not notice growing until you stand beside it years later and see how thick the trunk has become.

The man still has problems. He still has questions. Yet he is steadier. He is less frantic. He is less easily shaken. He is not tossed around by every wave of news and opinion and emotion. He has learnt to anchor.

He has learnt to say, God is good even when life is hard.

He has learnt to say, God is near even when I feel alone.

He has learnt to say, God is wise even when I do not understand.

He has learnt to say, God keeps His promises even when the timeline is not mine.

That is faith.

And then comes the sweetest and most glorious ending. The man realises that his faith is not the real hero of the story. God is.

God gave him faith in the first place. God sustained that faith. God carried him through the trial. God forgave him in repentance. God strengthened him in weakness. God provided what was needed. God was faithful when the man was not.

The man has more faith now because he has seen more of God.

Not just heard about Him. Seen Him.

Seen His providence. Seen His mercy. Seen His discipline. Seen His kindness. Seen His hand on his life.

This is why suffering can produce stronger faith. It shows you that God is not theoretical.

He is not a concept.

He is Lord.

He is Father.

He is Shepherd.

He is Saviour.

So if you are the man in this story, my dear reader, and you are praying, “Please God, give me more faith” then take heart. Your prayer is not ignored. It is heard. Yet be prepared. The Lord may answer by giving you a hard road for a season because He is building something in you that comfort cannot build.

He is building a faith that can stand.

A faith that can endure.

A faith that can sing in prison.

A faith that can forgive.

A faith that can obey.

A faith that can wait.

A faith that can die well and live well.

And when you finally reach the end of your road you will not be boasting in your faith as if it were your achievement. You will be worshipping the God who held you the whole way.

You will say, not I was strong but He was faithful.

You will say, not I had great faith but I had a great Saviour.

And that, my dear reader, is the best ending of all.

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